Category: Single-mom

Clouds 

August 2014

I lay on a floatie on the lake, allowing the gentle waves to carry me. Staring up into the sky listening to children play, and waves falling on the shore. I see a big fluffy white cloud. It looks like it is getting closer, so close I thought perhaps it would envelope me. Then for no reason it backed up, drifted away from me and began to dissipate. I laid there sad because it reminded me of my family. I thought to myself, “my family is dissipating right before my eyes. We are all going our separate ways.” As I continued to watch that cloud completely break up I realized something: Once that cloud began to break it allowed the sun to shine through. After the cloud was gone I could see clear blue skies.
Not all things that look and feel bad are bad. Sometimes those bad things make room for the good and right things. This lake helps me every time I come.

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Reflections

Reflections

July 2014

Nothing like a long drive and time near the water to give you time to think and reflect. I just got our vehicle out of the mechanic shop yesterday, and as I’m driving down the road, it is struggling and skipping. (It must be those hoses the mechanic said needed to be changed soon. My thoughts instantly turn to the last thing my son asked me before I left to pick it up from the mechanic,

“Mom, when are you going to get rid of that and get a new one?”

It stung my tenacity. I don’t give up. I believe ANYTHING can be salvaged. Which is precisely why I stayed married for so long. When you invest so much in something, it is difficult to give it up. We just replaced the engine, and now we are fixing everything on the new engine that we already fixed on the old one.

This drive, combined with soothing waters, has led me to consider buying a new vehicle.