August 2014 -ish
My day has been like a roller-coaster. I am still learning the art of Indifference. I no longer feel love for my exhusband, but I’m trying to differentiate between hate or indifference. I guess as I sit here and write this post I am answering my own question. If I have any feelings at all in the situation then it must not be indifference. Today one of my daughters broke down in tears when I talked to her about her angry attitude she has been carrying. I told her I realize that she is lashing out at everyone because she is very hurt that her father makes no attempts to keep in touch with her even though he has her phone number. To make it worse he keeps in touch with her older sister, and occasionally a younger one. Never her. She admitted to me that he is the reason for her anger. Of course I understand. Today he contacted me, asked if “everyone was well”. I was shocked he even asked that! I told him I was shocked. He proceeded to tell me that I am having a bad attitude towards him, etc. I laughed. He definitely stirred some emotions, so I wasn’t being very indifferent today when I told him that I do not care what happens to him and that he is no longer worthy of my concern.
I’m still working on that indifference! I will get there. In the meantime I hug the children and remind them that I am still here for them.