EMOTIONLESS
Emotionless I stand
Eyes glazed
Mind dazed
Indifferent I sit
Body cold
Feeling old
Detached I lay
Heart numb
Feeling glum
Distant I remain
Blank stare
Soul spared
Here I lay
Near I sit
In feeling I stand
In passion I will rise
The walls are closing in on me
So fast, their vacuum force is sucking the breath right from my lungs.
I feel trapped.
I feel I can’t breathe.
I feel I can’t move as they get closer and closer.
It’s getting stuffy, almost stifling hot.
The air is thick, and my chest feels heavy.
It’s getting dark, my breaths are shallow.
It’s getting harder and harder to breathe.
I can’t see; there is no light in here.
Total darkness.
They’re moving closer and closer;
I can feel the corners.
It’s pressing on me faster and faster, with increasing urgency.
My arms and legs can’t keep the walls from getting closer.
Trying with all my might, pushing as hard as I can.
I am no match for the strength of these walls.
Walls are supposed to be for our protection
But theses walls are going to be the death of me.
July 2014
How ironic that I am currently lingering in the same place… Must be a habitπ
Lingering In bed with so much to do
Haven’t enough energy to get out of bed
Laying here working on my thoughts to subdue
I cling to my pillow and write a poem instead
Push that thought over there and this one over here
Keeping the ones I don’t want to forget
Lazily I turn to this day as I peer
Into its list of activities it bids me to attempt
I calculate the time and some will wait I fear
I reluctantly release pillow to begin my assent
Nothing gets accomplished while lingering amongst sheets
Although their comforting warmth sure do tempt
I arise to face the day and it’s activities defeat
Until this evening,my pillow, once again to it I’ll retreat
August 2014
Broken-hearted again
For me would be in vain
But for my little girl
Her daddy was her world
How can a father leave
It’s hard for me to conceive
Not even say goodbye
I can only stand by
And watch her tears stream down
From her big eyes of brown
Her bleeding heart poured out
Through her brown eyes spout
I set my pain aside
My broken heart I’ll hide
And take the time to heal
As before my girl I kneel
And let her hug and hold
As I lovingly enfold
Her precious body in my arms
Wishing to protect her heart from harm
From harm, hurt, and pain
I wish my arms could constrain
But for now I hold her tight
As her daddy silently takes flight
To my sweet 8yr old daughter
July 2014
Oh daddy dear,
Why take these years off your life with such rage and anger and wrath?
You make yourself look such a fool.
Breathing out curses and idle threats,
We all know you won’t follow through.
You want our respect,
but the words you reflect
are unworthy of anyone’s time!
Insanity is the result of your fit.
If you want different results,
then try a different approach.
Oh, daddy dearest,
You made home the dreariest place to be.
When you went away,
a peace settled in,
and we were all free to relax.
If everywhere you go,
you get the same response,
then maybe you should look within.
– Mommy Sincere